“Your goal is not to battle with the mind, but to witness the mind.”
One of the main reasons I started to practice meditation is because I need to find peace with my mind. I’ve always had a hard time focusing, my mind keeps flowing everywhere. I like the creativity my mind produces but also I feel exhausted about its restless activity. Often, I would have great ideas and get excited about them but as soon as I start to take convert ideas into action, I get myself distracted by my own thoughts. I switch my focus to other things and lose my original motivation, then I get tired and bored. Because of none-stop self-distractions, I often struggle with accomplishing my goals.
Healthy food, exercise and vitamin supplements definitely helped my focus issue at a certain level and they made me feel better about myself in general, but I still had a hard time to stay productive and accomplish my goals. I knew something was missing.
Why I Started Meditating
I realized that even with a healthy diet and exercise, they should not be repeated mindlessly. I tended to fast forward to the outcome and ignored the process. I rarely spent time paying attention to my feelings at each moment observing my thoughts, that is how I often overwhelmed myself by things going on around me. I finally decided to slow down, be patient, train my mind with awareness…… I started to practice sitting meditation.
What I Learned From Meditation
For the last couple of months, I have been practice sitting meditation every day. I normally spend 5 minutes in the morning before all my activities start. During the practice, I focus on my breath, I let my thoughts come and go till my mind eventually stops wandering. When I reach the moment of being in the present, I call it the sweet spot. Here is what I learned from practicing meditating by far:
- I am more aware of my thoughts. Instead of wasting time thinking many things, I choose to be aware and let go.
- I am more mindful of my activities. Instead of running around all the time, I take each activity more mindfully, live in the moment.
- I feel more focused and attentive. Instead of getting distracted easily, I am more focused on one task at a time.
- I feel more peaceful and calm. Instead of letting anxiety take over my mentality, I try to maintain my peace and carry on.
- I feel less fear. Instead of constantly fearing the outcomes, I focus more on the process
I know meditation is not a short term fix, instead, it is a life practice. Although I am at the very beginning of this practice, the subtle changes it brings to me is a big step. I am excited about my morning practice for the very next day. To witness the changes, even the subtle ones, is a beautiful magical process.
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